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I'm sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute to this larger than life woman.

My own grandmother died the day before my daughter's first birthday. We will be celebrating her third birthday in two weeks, and due to how the calendar lines up, the party will be on the second anniversary of my grandmother's death.

I know what you mean, about that particular whiplash and how harsh it is. But you raise such a beautiful point: if we make a point to remember how death looms over us all, we can appreciate those we love, and make better decisions, just a little more often. (and maybe not get so worked up when our loved ones, say, leave a huge mess in the kitchen. Ahem.)

I am now starting to feel grateful that the passing of my grandmother coincides with my first daughter's birthday. For one, it makes me reflect on everything I admire about my grandmother, especially her ever gentle, empathetic touch with children. It also helps ground me in my goals with my children: what values do I want to pass on? How do I embody those values; how do I show my family they really are the most important thing to me? How do I demonstrate that through how I spend my time? That reflection process (and resulting decisions) are the best way I know how to honour my grandmother's memory.

May the experience of grief ground you in your experience of love.

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My mothers Mom sounds a lot like your Grandma. I still miss her, but hear her voice from time to time & where it used to make me sad, it now fills me with love & memories. I wish that for you.

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I sincerely loved this story. It was perfectly honest and real, that doesn’t happen anymore. I think some of that authenticity and weird has trickled down into your DNA making you the wonderful you that you are. I was thinking about her Andrew and being like I hope there is that cool a story said by my grandkids someday. So far I have only racked up a turtle named Speedy and a Squirrel named Nutty. I am sorry beliefs interfered in your relationship, but your inner peace is also very important. The healthiest thing you can do is to protect your peace by keeping negativity out. I can’t believe I am up in here messaging a celebrity but you are one I could actually picture talking too like a fellow human being without wanting to run from the room screaming because of fake you are. Sorry for your loss.

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I'm sorry for your loss, but at least you have those cherished memories to hold on to ❤️

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O.O :)

You are quite the wistful weaver of words, dearie.

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I'm so very sorry to hear this, but she sounds awesome. And a giant lizard!?!? I, myself, love dachshunds. My oldest passed the day before Thanksgiving, I still have 1. Prayers for you and your family. From your home state, Alabama

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🙏🙏🙏💗👵🪶🕊

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I read your book and recall your references to your grandparents. Sincere condolences.

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I'm so sorry for your loss. Your grandma sounds like she was an awesome lady to know.

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Grandmas are the best. They can be sweet and charming and crazy and quirky and sometimes all at once. I knew mine very well and saw them regularly. I cherish my time with them and the memories I still have of them. Hold onto your memories of your grandmother tight Felicia and they will always be there for the two of you to share.

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Beautifully written. I enjoyed reading it. I think you are an amazing person. Thank you

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Your grandma sounds amazing

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Your grandma sounds like quite a character. So much of what you remeber would have scared the crap out of me too ... I'm not a lizard person. But she also sounds fun. She may not have been cuddly, but look at the amazing memories she gave you. Cherish them. I am sorry for your great loss.

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I love this so much!! My mom passed away Feb 19 and it’s hard to know how to feel sometimes. She was a wonderful woman and I cherish the last few months we spent together even though she was sick. I too am the keeper of her memories and I can share that with my sister which makes me very happy. You can share and teach your daughter so much about your grandmother and that will keep her memories alive ❤️ she sounded like like an amazing woman! Thank you for sharing her with us!

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Love this story and Love the Grandma you had/have. My Grandma is going to be 99 in May. Out of my 4 grandparents…she is the only remaining. I hope the best for ya girl!!! Go get ‘em!!!

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I offer my condolences once again on the passing of Andrew the mutant Alpo loving monitor lizard, and to the science-loving, no-shit-taking grandma of yours who raised him and you.

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